four >> voice

[awaitingalbion]

[With a clearing of his throat, Merlin addresses the journal system.]

Perhaps...I am not really cut out to be a knight. Although, it'd be nice to get some of the recognition. A knight is never stuck serving breakfast.

[There's a quiet, longing look as Merlin looks "off screen" towards Arthur's abandoned sword. Knights, after all, had so much more of an acceptable heroism.]

Miss Fina, could I request an audience with you? It's about--err--what we talked about, last time. I could use some help.

[Merlin is shown drawing a palm across his face. He grumbles.] Arthur's still not back.

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[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[There is a decently long pause as he considered and then-] I... do not know.

[After all, he did feel compelled to talk more]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

Seems like an odd thing to not know. Did you change jobs or not?

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

I was... [He pauses for a while. What's a good word? URged too seems too strong so... oh. That one-] compelled to... speak.

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

[Aha! He's cottoned on.] And you normally are not compelled to speak? That's the impression I get.

[You deserve a gold star for your belated insights, Merlin. :|]

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[He nods at the book. Clearly Jaffar is a bastion of good ideas too]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

I suppose there are more ways to communicate than just speaking.

[Like, say, getting smacked on the back of the head. That's very communicative and Merlin is rather familiar with it.]

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[He nods again. That and Jaffar just isn't used to communication in general. These books give him new avenue too, but even so the result feels even more strange than talking at times]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

Wow. I guess you were serious about not being so fond of speaking. [Merlin frowns. That made a second non-speaker. Although, he supposes, at least this man can talk--unlike Razette.]

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[There's a distinct pause before lightly, but still fairly flat:] Words... are complicated.

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

That's because they're also powerful. [He nods to himself.] And powerful things usually are.

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...Powerful. Hm. That makes him think, actually before he... slowly nods. He never thought of it like that but it makes sense]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

I suppose...if you speak less, you can make less of a gamble with that power?

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[Oh Merlin, that's thinking way too much into it. But Jaffar when he stops to think about it finds himself kinda agreeing. This time he doesn't nod but if you knew him welland this were in person you might notice his facial expression subtly shifting. ...Not that you can see that at all here, probably]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

Isn't there anyone that you can just...talk with? Comfortably?

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[There is a distinct pause before eventually he doesn't nod but he does pop out the word/name:] ...Nino.

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

Who's Nino?

[He's cottoning on that, if he wants some kind of verbal response, he'd better avoid the yes-or-no questions.]

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...Hm. He pauses and then this shifts to written. It'll take a while but eventually he lightly sketches out a drawing of this girl (http://i15.tinypic.com/4gjb6e9.png). It's a much cruder sketch though. And then to add on with voice he clarifies as he draws-]

...Green hair and... blue eyes.

[His voice, which is probably been dull this whole time, will display something close to affection as he clarifies that]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

[That's encouraging!]

She looks...very beautiful, Jaffar. [He says it kindly, not lecherously.]

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...He considers that. Honestly, he's never thought about it like that for a long period of time but eventually, he agrees-]

...She is.

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

Is she in Luceti, as well?

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...Nod. She is indeed]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

She must feel honoured that you don't mind talking a bit more with her.

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...There is a very distinct pause before-] ...Honored? [He has nothing; why in the world would she be honored?]

[awaitingalbion.livejournal.com]

If you don't talk often, but you talk to her? It probably makes her feel special.

[taintedruby.livejournal.com]

[...] ...She is special.

[The way it's said vaguely implies that he is not]